Someone Wedding!!!!

Today I heard of my co-worker that she will marry with someone who is Pastor. She told us she will marry in Hawaii and have her honey moon in Japan. I am so happy for her , cuz she is up to 50 years old, She is pretty in her age. Keeping good skin and slim body.. She is alway keeping pray for her marry... Now she is happy to find acompany in her life. She told us she will retired and move to Canada. God Bless her!!!
I felt so sorry for myself. I had very very unhappy life before due to i choise wrong person.
When i heard many of my frends get married,, my heart is little bit pain,, I asked myself, If I have good temper or not too much expecation, maybe I can find someone i love and good to me.
Now I m getting worry. cuz I dont know when and how i will marry...So scared to heard that. Even I really want to marry. Life is not easy for everyboday... Many adverture,, I m so scared that I will make wrong desicion and choose wrong person so that I will make myself painful again and again.. The broken heart will become many pieces and pieces...
It is not easy for two person compromise and take care each other,, sometime I was so worried that my lover will find others during our relationship.. that will get more pain and pain,, there is no granuteen in our life to bond one person....

God Bless Me....